Thanksgiving

Hello beautiful souls,
I hope all of you have been enjoying your families today, and eating tons of good food obviously. Today is a day of reflection of the things most important to us. Over my journey this past year and a half I've started learning to realize what's most important and what I am thankful for. My family, friends, food to eat, and a home to live in. I can go on and on of things I've started appreciating more and more. But, today is slightly different, and deeper than the usual. 

Today, I stopped and reflected once again. What am I most thankful for this thanksgiving without my baby? I've thought about this all day and it finally hit me. I am thankful for my body. This vessel  that holds my soul. This body has been through hell and back and yet, she's still standing. My body grew, carried and delivered my sweet warrior. The place Adalynne loved the most was right on my chest. My body fed my baby for 4 months out of her 9 months alive. This vessel survived nearly dying at 18 in a car accident. And even, multiple surgeries throughout its short existence. 

It's full of scars and stretch marks and will never be as skinny as I want but, I'm healthy.
My body and mind are healthy in a world full is disorders and disease. I would have traded places with my baby girl in two shakes of my hips, but life doesn't work like that. We get what we get dealt and we can't control what our hand will be. I was able to open my eyes, get out of bed myself and go cook breakfast this morning.  Some people can't even do the first of those listed. I'm so thankful for this body and how much it amazes me each day. I'm proud of the progress my body has made and the differences since having my sweet girl. I'm thankful for all types if things each and every day but, today I'm thankful for me.  Thank you body for allowing me to sob on the floor and then push myself up, wipe my eyes and carry on with my day. These moments of weakness followed by strength keep me going. This body gives me hope for the things I can do tomorrow. 

Enjoy the rest of your night with your family and be careful to the shoppers that are about to be out n full force. And, love yourself a little today when thinking of others. Sometimes we overlook ourselves too much. 

All my love readers,

You guys are freaking amazing.